Tuesday, November 29, 2011

"Life's A Climb But The View Is Great "

No writing blog today since I think this video says so much more than I ever could. My 12WBT Journey so far. I still have a way to go yet but knowing that everything is clicking into place finally is a good thing.

This video goes back to where it all began. A pregnancy where I started to use the excuse 'I am going to get fat anyway!' & then once Tilly was born, learning to cope with a baby who wouldnt stop crying. This led to minimal sleep. The body had to cope somehow right! Food became my friend and slowly but surely the weight piled on.....little bit by little bit. I was close on 80kg when I first found Michelles program! So while waiting for it to start again, I started what I thought was healthy. I plateued out at around 76kg. Thank god preseason started not long after that! The first round during preseason and the 12 weeks I dropped almost 6kg! I was stoked. I was within 5kg of getting to my goal weight. Then life became busier as I became a uni student and the excuses of time kicked in again. Junk food and softdrink became a daily staple and within 12 short months, I had GAINED 15kg! I was up to 85kg and the heaviest I had ever been. All that hard work from the previous year had been undone. The thing that is ironic is that I have never stopped being a 12WBT member. I am currently in my 5th round......I just didnt participate in the other 3 rounds. It too became an excuse since I must be doing something right if I am still in the program.....RIGHT!

This round has already seen me lose 5kg and I am now within 100g of getting back into making that trek once again through the 70s and finally back into the 60s. I have the support of my family who are helping to keep me honest, I have the support of the Huggies mums who have been nothing short of amazing and I have the support of Michelle & the 12WBT team. Michelle has never given up on me and I thank her for that. She has been a constant support even when things werent so great. Her tweets that I get in reply to mine occasionally really help to pep me up and keep me on track. I mean Mish is always watching right. I swear she has little video links set up in all our homes ;).

For me it took literally over 12 months to find my mindset and for everything to sink in place. I am getting rid of my excuses....even new ones as they appear I am consciously making healthy choices. Just this week has seen me knocked down with the flu. I couldnt eat much since I had a horribly sore throat, but instead of turning to jelly and icecream, I made up the most amazing smoothie consisting of banana, strawberry, protein powder and even added in weet bix. It was healthy and it was filling! For only 263 calories I was impressed.

So to all who are either on the weight loss journey or thinking of it, the 12WBT program isnt just another diet. It is a way of life. It becomes second nature with what to eat and what not to eat. I even have found that to succeed you need to have balance. There is no point going to that once in a lifetime function and feeling miserable cause you dont want to blow your calorie budget.....go out, enjoy but make sure you work it off! I find that if I want to have some fun, the best way to do it is smash some time up before the function! Then you are halfway there really huh ;)

Get on board people! This trip is amazing!!

Cath xoox

Friday, November 25, 2011

With Every Breakdown Is a Breakthrough

What a roller coaster 24 hours this has been but as the saying from Michelle goes.....

"With every breakdown, is a breakthrough"

So wow where do I start. Well I guess my proudest moment was the fact that I didn't actually even want to turn to food. Family had pizza followed by sticky date pudding and ice cream.....me.....well I am thankful for my preparation of precooked meals. I decided to have a piece of Jens lasagne that I had cooked and frozen on the weekend. Even hubby had the same!

So my meltdown.......

It all started when there was a slight disagreement at home and it just snowballed from there. I literally ended up writing a full page of hate on myself.....this page consisted or words such as hopeless, fat, stupid, pathetic, fraud, horrible and im sure you get the picture. I tried to follow the advice of a good friend who suggested that I stand in front of the mirror and ask what I liked about myself and not leave there till I found something......but nope, I had hit rock bottom. I didn't want to find anything nice to say about me.....stupid thing is 2 days ago I could have written several pages but the last 24 hours.....the words of strength just haven't come. I am even behind in my distance uni studies and we are only in week two so that isnt helping the situation either.

Its been tough.. I have even shyed away from my facebook 12WBT friends which I should never do since they are my rock. They are my strength. They are the ones who are the light when all seems dark. Instead of turning to them, I have walked away in hope that they don't have to put up with my dark mood.

Last night I decided ahead of time that I would not do my usual #crackofarse session but alas the body didn't listen and was still awake at 6am. I thought I would get up and go for a run....even in the rain. That wasn't to be either when my joggers decided to finally give up on me. Well that was it and again the tears flowed. I mean not even my joggers were there for support anymore.

I have struggled to get through the day with little more than perhaps a smirk here and there but I have managed to get some thoughts in the right place after an amazing chat with Bec who has been a wonderful friend since I met her in round 2 last year. She started to say things that got me thinking about where I am and who I am as a person. Ideas that I hadn't even thought of and slowly but surely little pieces of the puzzle had clicked into place.

I was becoming a person that I THOUGHT everyone else wanted me to be and I was putting unnecessary pressure to get there. I had started the whole mindset that I was the inspiring one and I have to do things to inspire people when in actual fact I don't but it wasn't till today that I realised this. It also was a further realisation that I do have to find my own internal reasons and factors that I had before. The ones that set me on the forward motion to JFDI and not matter what people thought. I have put myself in a place that I am feeling so down that even the nicest of gestures or compliments I am looking too far into.

Just 2 days ago I was offered something from a fellow 12WBTer who I admire. I looked too much into it after a follow up post from another and went off half cocked about not wanting to be a charity case when this was not it at all. She was mearly trying to be honestly kind. There was nothing in it and she wanted nothing in return. This could also be the mindset that I have about accepting anything since unless I buy it myself, I am always the one to give. I never receive anything that I don't know about. Heck, since I didn't buy myself a bday present there wasn't even anything here on that morning for me. It will be the same at Christmas time. But I usually don't mind. I have become accustomed to giving rather than receiving. the downside to that is when I do receive, I don't know how to take it nor do I know how to accept it.

A further thought was "But people rarely say positive things they don't mean. So I now accept it & thank them politely even when I struggle to hear it" This is a major thing I do need to remember! This is going to be a hard one to swallow but I better get use to the positivety.

The last 24 hours have been a massive breakdown for me. I have hit rock bottom. For me now though as they say.....the only way is up. So here is to the breakthrough that will come and will help me smash up the final 3 weeks of 12WBT. Look out everyone.....


First things first though, time to put up with the pain for a little while as I need to don my old joggers that have long been retired. I will do that if it means I can get my workout done. It will quite possibly feel nicer walking bare feet but oh well. They say no pain no gain though dont they.

I am on a mission to continue to lose weight, to accept praise without question and when an offer for help goes out I will say thank you. Within reason of course. This is just another path that the new me is taking on. It is a new path of acceptance. It will be tough but I have support to ensure I get to my goal. Goals in which need to change now.

My one thing I am proud of over these last 24 or so hours is the fact that eating junk hasn't even crossed my mind....ok maybe it did but my little will power muscle has been doing some flexing. Even my little inner voice has been a lot nicer today. It was great in talking me out of walking to the shops in the rain at 7.30 last night for chocolate so something is clicking in place.

Hugs to all who have been wonderful support during this time. Its tough when you hit rock bottom but its the friends that are there to pick you up and help you back to the top that mean so much. They can be the difference between making and breaking a situation.

I have attached a piccy that came up on my wall from Lorna Jane. It was like perfect timing it also clicks in with the second picture. 

A very popular quote from Harry Potter that we should all remember sometimes.

Mwah to you all!

Cath xoox

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

It takes a while to get it right!

Sometimes we try too hard.....then the expected happens and that pedastool you put yourself on collapses. I say the expected cause in life there is good along with bad. There is always a balance. There has to be for life to work. For me though it seems that I put myself up higher than I should which means nine times out of ten I have the air let out and I am left feeling let down and actually quite silly for thinking the I.....you know ME.....could even do this.

I should be happy at my weigh in today. I mean 1.3kg! Thats the best ever for me in a week and not to mention I have also surpassed my good round that I did last year by 700g and still have 3 weigh ins to go. So why I am being so hard on myself? Because after a perfect week I still cant find the strength to keep it up. I have been so great this morning and have had muesli and water for breakkie, fruit for morning tea......then go and be silly by having vegemite toast with Tilly for lunch! 2 pieces of Soy Lin bread lathered with butter and vegemite.....not only that but then I consumed one of those mini picnic bars and almost ate a packet of the mini bikkies of Tillys.....no idea on Tillys bikkies but there is 300 calories there and since it was all junk, I am far from feeling full. I am sitting here now eating my afternoon snack early in hope that it will curb the hunger pangs!!

So why is it that ones mindset can just change and before we have time to stop it the damage has been done? What can we do to ensure that doesnt happen? I mean heck, I had the will power to sit in McDonalds yesterday and purchase nothing but a bottle of water! Normally I would have had a seared chicken wrap but I knew that didnt fit with my accelerator day plan so ate before I left home.

I think it goes to show that even the best laid plans can sometimes have a set back but its how we deal with that set back that matters most. We are after all only human and slip ups will happen. It still saddens me though that I have been so perfect with everything.....until today and even then it wasnt that bad since I found myself stopping and the little voice even telling me to stop which is different! So something has changed right!

I need to find me something else to use as a stress reliever rather than food! I think food is just the easy option since its ALWAYS there. I am happy though that my house has been cleared of junk......days like today could certainly have been a lot worse than a few pieces of vegemite toast and bikkies!

I must say, I am a tad proud looking at my ticker and seeing almost 5kg lost! Its not what I was aiming for at this point, in fact it half of where I wanted to be BUT the fact that I have my head in the right (well almost right) place is so much more than those numbers. Its the mindset that will help those numbers continue to go down. Its the support that will help those number continue to go down. Most of all though.....


Anyhow must be finishing here as have a toddler insisting they need help to get up off the floor.....haha

Cath xoxo

Sunday, November 20, 2011

The Raw Me!

On the 8th of September 2010 these were my stats!

SW: 74.4kg
CW: 70.4kg
WLTW: 200g
WIW1: 73.8kg
WIW2: 73.7kg
WIW3: 73.3kg
WIW4: 72.8kg
WIW5: 72.2kg
WIW6: 72.0kg
WIW7: 71.8kg
WIW8: 71.3kg
WIW9: 70.8kg
WIW10: 71.3kg
WIW11: 70.6kg

GW1 - 73.4kg ACHIEVED 08/07/10
GW2 - 72.5kg ACHIEVED 21/07/10
GW3 - 71.5kg ACHIEVED 11/08/10
GW4 - 70kg
GW5 - 68kg
10%GW - 67kg
EGW - 65kg

Chest: W1: 88cm Wk4: 87cm Week 8: 85cm NOW: 83cm (-5cm)
Waist: W1: 88cm Wk4: 85cm Week 8: 80cm NOW: 78cm (-10cm)
Hips: W1: 95.5cm Wk4: 95cm Week 8:92cm NOW: 90 (-5.5cm)
Thigh measurement distance from knee: 33cm
(R) Thigh: W1: 57 Wk4: 54cm Week 8: 53 NOW: 52.5 (-4.5cm)
(L) Thigh: W1: 58 Wk4: 54.5cm Week 8: 54cm NOW: 52 (-6cm)

BMI is also down to 25.24 & I have lost 5.4% of my weight so far

Now if we fast forward to my weigh in this week and goals I have achieved so far.....or to some would seem like I havent achieved at all since I am well behind the cleared canvas I gave myself to work with!

SW: 84.8kg
CW: 81.4kg
WLTW: 600g
WIW1: 84kg
WIW2: 83.9kg
WIW3: 84kg
WIW4: 83.7kg
WIW5: 82.9kg
WIW6: 82.8kg
WIW7: 82kg
WIW8: 81.4kg
WIW9: 80.1kg

GW1 - 84kg ACHIEVED 28/09/2011
GW2 - 82.5kg ACHIEVED 09/11/2011
GW3 - 81.5kg ACHIEVED 16/11/2011
GW4 - 79kg
GW5 - 77kg
10%GW - 76.3kg
EGW - 65kg

Chest: W1: 94cm Wk4: 93cm NOW: 90cm (-4cm)
Waist: W1: 103.5cm Wk4: 101cm NOW: 97cm (-6.5cm)
Hips: W1: 114cm Wk4: 111cm NOW: 107cm (-7cm)
Thigh measurement distance from knee: 33cm
(R) Thigh: W1: 64cm Wk4: 62cm NOW: 60cm (-4cm)
(L) Thigh: W1: 62.5cm Wk4: 61cm NOW: 59cm (-3.5cm)

Slowly but surely the numbers are going back down again. I look at those figures from just over 12 months ago and even though I lost my way, I also learnt a valuable lesson too. I will get back to where I started and I will go one better.....I will get to my goal! I am already close to beating my weight loss for that first round too! I will use those old figure to help motivate me into getting there again. No point getting down about it all huh!

So here it is. The raw stats that show that whilst I succeeded once, I can be back there and succeed again! It was tough to post this as it almost makes me look like a failure! I also wanted to show everyone that eating the wrong foods and not exercising can and will take its toll. Look at me only 12 months later! I am paying the price for thinking otherwise!

Mwah to everyone! You are all my support and hold me up when things seem down. Now it is my turn to put it out there in raw detail at just how bad I let things get. Notice I said "I"! It was my fault. I have no-one else to blame since I wasnt forced to eat junk. I chose too!



Its time to hold myself accountable! Bring it On!

So these last 4 weeks I have decided to make me a list of what I am going to concentrate on and keep adding to it. This will ensure that I keep myself honest as well as keep my mindset in the right place and get it in an even better place!

So here goes!

1. I will go to bed no later than 10.30pm. This will ensure at least 6 hours sleep. I will aim for earlier as the weeks progress to be getting no less than 8 hours sleep per night. (so if I am on facebook or twitter after these times, kick my ass off to bed) wink

2. I will eat healthy. Nothing will go in this mouth that I feel Michelle would question!

3. I will drink only water and green tea. No more coke zero! For now water will also include mineral water since I have been drinking that with a splash of cordial recently then I still get the fizzy drink without all the added sugars.

4. Fresh Fruit and yoghurt will be my choice of snacks. I will have the occasional crackers and healthy made dip however

5. I will aim to not seem so cranky at home! I do sometimes have my cranky pants on and its time for them to come off and stay off! Will try the approach of nice mummy and see how that goes.

6. I will prepare for the week ahead. No more CBF days when we head for the take away shop! Eat at home or go for a salad if out and about!

7. I will continue to get up in the morning and be out the door by no later than 5.10am. If its wet, then I will do at least 10km on the cross trainer

8. I will spend no less than 2 hours per day on my uni work. This will ensure no more late nights or rushing at the end of the week to get it done.

9. I will do my best to be THE BEST!

10. I will give the 100 workout a go at least once per week and note down improvements so that I can get better! (see piccy)

11. I will continue to add to this list

This is my promise to myself, my family, my 12WBT family, the 12WBT crew and most of all to Michelle!

I CAN DO THIS! Heres to really putting in for the last 4 weeks!

Cath xoxo

Friday, November 18, 2011

I get It.....I think I really do get it and gosh its taken a long time!

Wow What a week! and an amazing one at that smile

I have eaten clean, I have exercised well and I even managed a loss of 600g on the scales on Wednesday as well as not to mention the fact I have lost 25cm so far off my body.....WOOHOO! Something is going right and I think that its the fact that I get it now.

I cant just eat junk food and expect to still look good! I have to earn it. I have to put in the hard work and the rewards will happen. They are coming, albeit very slowly, but its happening. Its happening to the point that I am now in mediums in Lorna Jane wear! I am so stoked at that.

I think the main thing for me really is that I am sub consciously making the right choices now. Today for example was a big eye opener for me. Hubby & I went for a drive to Ganmain. Home of the most divine Ganmain Pies. They are SOOOOOOO good. Anyhow, hubby grabbed a cold coke and a pie, I got a bottle of water and decided to wait till I got home to have a salad wrap! Which I did!

What an achievement and what a change in mindset that was. It has taken me till today to realise that yeah I know.....I get it! I thought I did before but now its just different.

Anyhow its late blog readers but on that note I would like to leave you with a poster pic I found on PInterest. I really love that site! Such inspirational things to be found.

Mwah to you all!

Cath xoxo

Sunday, November 13, 2011

It was just a slip but sometimes thats all it takes

Ah! Sipping on ice cold water with slices of lemon on a hot day = bliss and not to mention healthier than a glass of coke!

Now thats out of the way oh gosh what a couple of days I have had.....Where to begin...hmm.

Lets start with Friday!

Alarm goes off at 4.30am as I was going over with hubby to his place of work since it made it easier when he finished to get Tilly to her dance performance rather than have to do a double trip. All good! Well so I thought. I got to mums and before I knew it I had consumed 3 cups of tea with full cream milk (considering I drink my tea with lemon it was a change), had 2 slices of toast instead of my usual musli and it was all downhill from there. Before 10am I had already guzzled down 3 glasses of coke as well as chocolate and the list just went on. I felt like crap. At one point I even gave up. Everything just became to hard and my inner voice started its usual convincing talk of

"Why do this? Why keep getting up at 4.30am to go walking when you are getting minimal results? Why eat so healthy when you arent losing big numbers? Why count calories and watch what you eat when its easier to just eat what you want and not care?"

Its amazing isnt it how this little voice can be so convincing! I still had some fight though and tweeted:

"@12WBT @mishbridges Why do I sabotage so badly. Not even 10am & omg you can tell im not at home. No workout, junk food consumed #feelill"

Michelle replied "@cathperko @12WBT no beat ups. What's done is done, move on and back on track. Go for a walk or run to clear your head xxx"

I even had some amazing messages from the ladies here "lizzyaimee84 @cathperko @12wbt @mishbridges see? You got Mish love again! & if u check our FB group we all have your back! You know what to do! xxxx"

And countless messages from everyone on facebook. No matter where I went there were words of support and encouragement. It was so overwhelming. I couldnt avoid it and what it did do was help me fight that inner voice and get the afternoon back on track. I consumed bucket loads of water to try and flush the system as by this time my tummy was just churning.

I think I need to remember the following poster more often instead of looking for the 'easy' way out

Tillys dance performance was amazing! and I even turned down take out on the way home and instead opted to heat up a piece of Lasagne I had frozen from when I made it last week. Washed it down with a cup of tea (with lemon of course!) and went to bed.

Saturday Morning!

Alarm went off at 4.45am and I was out the door by 5.10am! I had my bounce back in my step once again and kept thinking over and over of all the words of encouragement I had got. I even returned from my run with a tweet from Lizzy: "@cathperko @12wbt @mishbridges I was trying to negotiate staying in bed - ur tweet has kicked my butt into gear! #CrackofArse here I come" Made me feel all warm and fuzzy. Reading back on facebook there were words such as "you can do this!, you are my inspiration!, dont give up now you have come so far!". It made me realise how important this program really is. I think this is why I keep coming back but this time I am achieving, I am doing the right thing (most of the time) and as hard as it is to accept, maybe, just maybe I am inspiring to someone out there.

After my morning walk, I came home and relaxed till it was time to take Tilly to her afternoon performance. I had put my name down for backstage help and OMG I am so glad I did although still exhuasted today.....haha. It is so full on and time just flies! 3 hours I was back there and in 2 hours I had burnt close on 1600 calories. Added with the mornings effort and I was over 2000 for the day! I think I know now why dancers are so fit! They are not just amazing to watch on stage, these girls are in a dance, and have to get changed and back on stage for the next one. Its constant flow is amazing to see. One mistake though could see the whole plan come undone. I think some of these mums have been doing this for many years and its just habit now.

Anyhow, other than my downward spiral on Friday morning, the words of encouragement from some amazing ladies and Michelle helped me pick myself back up again by lunchtime. It has taught me though that being organised is so important. I thought it would be ok to just go and plan there but no way does that work. Not even a little bit.

Good luck to all you amazing ladies. Those who sent me their wishes and gave me a push back in the right direction when I had swayed....

THANK YOU! (you know who you all are)

Mwah! Now bring on week 8!

Cath xoxo

PS Thank you Lizzy for hunting me down everywhere on Friday. You cant begin to imagine how helpful it really was :) xoxo

Monday, November 7, 2011

What Makes YOU Happy?

This is the question that I answered to win myself a $100 Lorna Jane gift voucher today! OMG I am stoked....now I get to add more amazing workout gear to my wardrobe. So I guess you all want to know.....


@LornaJaneActive Being able to get up at 4.45am for a workout makes me happy! #happy

@LornaJaneActive Knowing that I could have not pushed myself anymore in a workout makes me happy! #happy

@LornaJaneActive finding that inner light that makes you believe you can do it and making sure that the determination continues #happy

@LornaJaneActive Being #happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. #quote

Those were what I had that made me happy. There were so many other things I could have put there but didnt want to overload the twitter stream. When the announcement was made this morning.......

TY for tweeting me what makes you #happy... they were all smile worthy :) The winners are @cathperko (+ 2 others not mentioned in this blog) Congrats!!! Lx.

What an amazing announcement though! Now I have to work out what I will buy! Maybe I will finally get one of those Never Never Never Give Up singlets since that seems to be me to a tee....lol.

On with more good news.....I got my final assessment marks in the mail today! It seems that right at this minute, I have passed the second semester of uni! 8 units already done. I am pretty happy with that considering this time last year I was only finding out I was accepted now I am sitting here already 1 year down, 3 to go :)

Now with all my good news, follows bad. It always seems to happen too me since nothing can be celebrated for too long. So, we bought a fridge last week and it was working fine till last night we noticed nothing in it was cold and the freezer wasn't freezing anymore. We didn't stress and took it outside this morning as we thought it may be just over frozen.......that was fine since we still had our old faithful fridge of 15 years. Mind you we had already lost all our salads and stuff since it was just hot in the other fridge....such a waste of food and money :( Fast forward to this afternoon.......the circuit break flicked off on the powerpoints in our house earlier this arvo. On further investigation, we found it to be our little faithful fridge was tripping it. I was heartbroken. So I still dont know if we have a fridge that even works at this time. The other one we purchased last week is back inside and turned on but I guess I wont know till tomorrow!

I had already planned my dinner of chicken and the family was having pizza. After that it went downhill. I had 3 slices of pizza washed down with a coke zero. I hit the stuff it I dont care anymore frame of mind. This was quickly filled with the guilt frame of mind that had me feeling like crap at what I had done......then I got thinking....whats done is done, move on and work on fixing the problem......thats the advice I give everyone else so why cant I take it too right!

So my commitment I have put on facebook and twitter is

"Start each day fresh. Yes tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow I will smash out 1000cals to burn off wrong choices this afternoon #crapday"

That is my promise to myself! I need to fix what I have done rather than wallow myself in self pity. I am still on track but maybe not on track for the weight loss this week I was hoping for but there is still hope! The big key to this here is I realised early the problem and shut it down there and then. I sit here now with a warm lemon tea and then I think it might be an early night.

Afterall, tomorrow morning is not only going to be early, its going to be tough too!!

Cath xoxo

Sunday, November 6, 2011

The light is on and there is no turning it out this time!

Well once again this silly duffer got on the scales this morning....you would think I would have learnt by now that weight in is WEDNESDAY no any other day of the week. Seriously, I got get my head right with this before it puts me down again. A bonus however, I did take my measurements yesterday as last weeks 100g weigh in loss has been constantly on my mind. I was happy dancing and cant wait to officially measure up now wink

Yesterday was amazing, I got 3 tweets from the amazing Michelle too! My favourite one however was when a good 12WBT friend I made back in round two last year tweeted -

"@MishBridges @cathperko is doing a wonderful job i think she has got her mindset right."

and Michelles reply

"@patricia250862 @cathperko I think so too! Really proud! X"

That is the biggest thing for me so far....Michelle said she was proud. I have felt that I have let her and the 12WBT team during other rounds but promised this one that I would shine! and here I am hoping that I am shining for them as I feel that I am shining for me.

Yesterday was a day of other big things too! I finally put a pic up of me in my LJ gear. Lumps and bumps and all. Its a work in progress though right smile This week has been happy dance week. A week of overcoming fears and overcoming that inner voice. Its been a week of learning to listen to myself and not being scared to ask for help. A time when I got out there and worked out at 4.30 in the morning.....ON MY OWN!

I have learnt so much this week and from here on, things can only get better. I admire my fellow 12WBTers who have been where I am and are now doing bigger things. Hoffy, Lisa the butterfly, Patricia, Detta, Bec, Sara gosh there is so many from my first round who have helped me along the way to where I am today. I cant forget my new huggies 12WBTers either, Shona, Lizzy & Courtney just to mention a couple. Dont despair if you are not mentioned as you are all important to me on my journey. To Michelle and also to Amelia and the 12WBT team, this program is amazing! You arent just helping people lose weight, you are changing peoples lives.

Number one supporters though are my family. They are my biggest critics and support but they can also be my biggest sabotagers as well. They are the ones who keep me strong when all seems lost. I have to pass an honorable mention to Kim, my morning walking partner who helps give me that extra push out the door when needed.

So it seems my week has been a massive mindset week! A good one though. As I have said before, for some this change happens so quickly but for others, it takes time. Know this though, even though you may feel like you have failed, you can only fail if you quit totally. I thank the amazing Jillian for that one smile I had to attach this pic cause this is how I have been feeling this week! The quote sums it up totally.

So keep up the good work 12WBTers! We are over the hallway hurdle as tomorrow we awake into week 7. A week when even more realisations will occur and friendships bonded that little more.

As an added bonus, I have attached a pic of my new favourite snack! Strawberries dipped in low fat yoghurt and then frozen wink


Cath xoxo

Friday, November 4, 2011

Focus and Determination makes winners!

Well for those that saw my post in the I did it forum woohoo! How good is that. For those that didn't, heres a copy and I will also expand on it.

Well I did it! 5 days straight of what's called #crackofarse training. Amelia Burton started it on twitter a while back and every so often she has the #crackofarse challenge smile

Monday - Friday this week I have had my workout completed by 6am! Yesterday and today it was over by 5.30!

Talk about early starts. So here is my morning week in pictures!


According to Polar Personal Trainer, my stats for this week are

Training Sessions - 6
Duration - 05:23 hh:mm
Calories - 3333
Distance - 26.9km

I did a double session on Tuesday and have another session planned for this afternoon. I spoilt myself last night by getting some new summery Lorna Jane workout gear and feeling guilty for it but there has to come a time when I am worth it right!

SSS to still add on to this and heres hoping those scales are good to me next week. I am still a little shell shocked at this weeks measly 100g loss but I will not let that beat me this time!

Already this week I have burnt a whopping 3333 calories and its only day 5! Still tomorrows session to go in there and not to mention that I am adding to todays workout this afternoon. This mornings walk was actually more a run! I smashed my 4km record by 5 whole minutes. I have been doing it in around 46 minutes....today though......39 minutes and 5 seconds!! I am very impressed with that. So with workout done and dusted by 5.25am this morning and it being the 5th morning in a row that I had finished before 6am, I am doing very happy dances today. I am however VERY tired! I think I am going to need the sleep in tomorrow but I wont let that hold me back. There is still one more day in the workout week......sleep in can happen on Sunday!

So all this exercise got me thinking, where did this new found focus and determination come from. It has been like a light bulb was switched on and that was it! No more complaining or self sabotage, just getting out there training hard and then eating clean along the way. I have not had anything majorly unhealthy Since Saturday and that was pizza night but even then 2 bits and that was it! our pizza shop even makes them fairly healthy compared to the Dominos/Eagle Boys versions.So what clicked? Even I am still trying to work it out but the little voice in my head is even starting to play along and say "yeah yeah I get it now" rather than "go back to bed you sill woman the sun isnt even up!"

I think it is finally all clicking into place that I am really worth all the effort I am putting in, that I really do have people that love and care about me and most of all that no matter what, above all else, I CAN do it.

Thats me signing off for the blog today. This mornings pic wasnt quite as pretty as the others since the sun was only JUST starting to come up.


Cath xoxo

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Already halfway! Bring it!

Week 6 weigh in already! Well I was a tad saddened today by only the 100g loss BUT the amazing Michelle has sent me two tweets today on twitter that have made me hold my head high and know that I must not give up.

Went out walking again this morning......its kind of becoming a habit and even though I dread early mornings, I actually look forward to going out walking. Watching sunrises like this are amazing! I do love mother natures hue at this time. Everything is so new. Reminds me of the poem from the book the Outsiders. I might even do some more research into it and find out the meaning of it and blog back tomorrow.

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leafs a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

Hubby was only saying last night that I always do these things for a few weeks then give up. This time I am still going strong and although the weight loss hasn't been the most amazing, I am still here, still posting, still eating well and still exercising.

Life is BLISS right now smile

I almost wasnt going to go walking tomorrow morning when I heard my walking partner wasnt heading out at all. I thought, hmmm my chance to stay in bed but then realised in the next breath that I have to be up at 4.30 still as normal since my eldest daughter got her P's today and needed dads car which meant she had to drive him to work......catch is she needs to also pick him up by no later than 6.15am! Work is almost 45 minutes away.

So the plan is now to get dear daughter up early (4.30) then head out just doing laps of the block....walking laps that is smile That way ill still get my workout done and wont feel guilty knowing I didnt do what I needed to do this week.

So its a new week, a new start and I am ready to face it head on! I hope that next weeks weigh in will be much kinder as I am so over being in the 80s now.....get me back to the 70s!!

Hugs to all

Cath xoxo