Tilly has always been a terrible sleeper. By the time she was 6 weeks she was jsut constantly screaming to which the doctors said she ad reflux. Fair enough so we were given zantac and sent home. She slept so good for about a week and then everything started undoing again. I took her back to the doctors when she was around 2mths old. Nothing wrong I was told, babies cry its what they do. I started thinking I must be over exaggerating all this since yeah its true babies do cry. I saw our early childhood nurse who again told me to take Tilly back to the doctors as something wasnt right. So off I went, back again to a different doctor this time. I was shocked when this time around I was told that it was my fault she cried since she was getting held so much! I walked out and didnt wait to hear anything else she had to say. Now they were blaming me. I knew there was something not right but noone was listening :(
I finally bit the bullet and paid out a fortune to see the doctor here in town (its $65 a visit). She immediatly diagnosed Matilda with a severe middle ear infection and that she had it for a few weeks. WTH I was so angry since she had been to 2 different doctors in that time. I also FINALLY talked this doctor into giving me a referral for a paediatrician. Problem was I couldnt get in until Tilly was around 6mth old and that was 2mths away! The sleep got a little better but again once the ear infection was good she went backwards. The childhood nurse suggested I try goats milk formula. I was ready to do anything. So changed her to goats milk. I even tried visiting a naturopath but nothing worked. In the end the reflux medication wasnt working and neither was the change of formula. I put her back on normal formula and stopped the reflux medication since it was doing nothing anyhow. I decided that would give her body one month to clear anything out ready to see the pead.
For 4 weeks I lived on little sleep but I knew the date was getting closer so worked my way through it all. Day of appointment came and as soon as I walked in the office, described her symptoms to him including the fact I was now having to change her nappy every hour cause she was dirty, he immediately said put her onto soy formula. I was shocked. Could something as easy as putting her on soy work? I even got a script for Zoton which was to help her reflux.
I saw results instantly. She wasnt screaming all the time and was actually smiling again. Sleep got a little better but not great. The Early childhood nurse recommended that we go to sleep school. So I did that. Was interesting and I learnt alot too! Finally she slept how she should be sleeping. I was getting sleep too….yay!. This all lasted a couple of months then it was back to how she was before.
Everytime she sees me she cries. I can be out of the room and she will be happily playing with her dad or brother/sisters, as soon as I enter the room she comes running over and starts crying.
So no this isnt a new thing. This has been ongoing since the day she was born. She is apparently dairy intolerant and the reason I say apparently is cause she hasnt been officially tested. She can be so good but then come sleep time, nope its just a screaming session. I dont even bother anymore I just get her back up. She didnt even go to bed last night until after 9pm which is a far cry from the 6pm that she was in routine for.
I am tired I am exhausted and I want to do this. How can I do something for me though when I cant even get the basics like sleep right :(
Sorry for the long post but hopefully this helps you understand a little more about what I am trying to cope with. I usually have turned to food to get me through and I am really loving the fact that Mish has my back atm on twitter as do all that I have come to chat with in the @12wbt family. I really do appreciate it. My head is even that stuffed up atm that I was contemplating having hot chocolate with my breakkie for a pick me up sugar boost. Food has been my friend since all this started happening. I stopped when I got on the scales and found I had ballooned to 80.9kg! That was a long way from my normal 60-65kg. I was devastated. I did lose weight and am still surprisingly under that original weight. This keeps up though and I will go back there. I dont want to do that. Its jsut so hard atm and with little help (hubby does 12hr shifts) I am on my own at night with her since he is leaving at 5am and isnt back in the door until after 7pm so he needs sleep. Problem is I do too!
Will think of you all with each silly thought to go to the fridge (although there isnt anything real bad in there. Not even chocolate…lol) Heres hoping it ends soon.