Well I have been a little quiet on the forum and blog front for a little while and that is cause I had a bit of a wake up call when I went to the gym last week.
Hubby is doing his PT certificate and the gym has been amazing enough to let me sit in on everything even though I am not doing it. I even got a 3 month membership to the gym as well. They have been nothing but lovely!
Anyhow, last week it was all about fitness and how to test fitness levels. I thought hell yeah, I should blitz this without a problem.....how wrong I was. The group is made up of mostly 18-20 year olds with only me hubby and another lady aged 35 and over. I was not comparing myself to the younger ones in the group but I was down on myself personally as I really thought I could achieve so much more!
We did a step test for 3 minutes to test our VO2 output or whatever it is.....well mine came in at poor to good.....everyone else including hubby came in at excellent.....then we did a 30 second sit up test. I manage 13 and same with the 30 sec pushup test. The average for the majority of people is AT LEAST 15! I thought I did ok in my sit and reach (+3) till I found out the average for females is +11!!!. Then we had to do like a chin up hold type thing and see how long we could hold it for. I managed a measly 3 seconds and then proceeded to lose grip and fall hard on my foot. Gosh it hurt!! Next up was the beep test! Never done one of those before. Anyhow, off I went and was buggered by the time it beeped onto 3.2.
That was it for me. I was devastated but still kept a brave face for the rest of the morning. I was so upset too that hubby who has only just started exercising and eating healthy did so much better than me who has been doing this a lot longer than he has.
I spent the afternoon using the R.I.C.E method on my right ankle as it was so painful when I took my shoe off after the fall earlier on in the morning and I pondered on everything that had gone on. I know I cant compare myself to the others and I wasnt trying too but I really though that I personally was fitter than that!
So I had a booking to see a PT to set up a personalised program for me. Never done that before as usually just follow Michelles program or just go walking/running. I told him that it wasnt the fact my legs couldnt go anymore in the beep test but I just couldnt breathe! I literally was out of breath. He said that I need to improve my lung capacity and has given me a workout program to help do just that as well as help me get fitter. He also said to not dwell to much on the start as we all have to start somewhere. Its the starting point that is the most important part of any workout regime since its what we use to improve ourselves on.
They were also trying to get me to have a go at there 5 week Ultralite plan but after a lot of talking with the amazing 12WBT ladies on facebook, I am going to strip what I know back to basics and utilise the tools I have here. With the money I wont use on the other program, ill put towards a gym membership. It might be 40 minutes each way, but I think having the support of a PT is just what I need right now.
I have hit a small speedhump in the road of my weight loss journey. Its not the first speedhump and it certainly wont be the last. I am just proud that instead of giving up, I have taken the step forward to learn to be even better than I am now. I have learnt so much from Michelle and the 12WBT team and you know what.....
Not even the gym could find fault in this program ;) I knew they wouldnt though! Even though I have the workouts here, I have taken on a program a little more tailored to what I am after. Who knows, I just might be at finale looking fabulous AND be at goal weight!!
My family has faith in me, Michelle and the 12WBT crew have faith in me, my 12WBT family have faith in me, I just need to find that faith to have in me too! I WILL DO IT! I CAN DO IT!
Much love everyone and remember to NEVER give up!
It never gets easier, but you WILL get better at it :)