Saturday, October 2, 2010

Day 13 and the week that was!

Well its been over a week since my last blog but it has also been a very busy time. Have been doing a little soul searching, falling off the wagon & am now trying hard to get back to where I was before.

Its time to say goodbye to old habits that continue to rear there ugly head but its so hard! Tea cake of all things has become a weekness & once again coke is creeping back into my diet.

NOT GOOD!!

I know what I have to do but the thing is getting back to the headspace to do it. I am doing gym still whilst the PT is away travelling the world & am loving the classes that we are putting together without the trainer there. It shows how much we have actually learnt from him & especially myself who has only been going there since round 2 & already I have done up a couple of class sessions! I have achieved so much that I should be proud of & that I should be able to easily stay above board but things happen & we all (well most of us) fall off at sometime or another.

I sit here now knowing that there is a full mudcake sitting on my fridge, half a tea cake sitting on my bench, a pack of bikkies sitting on the microwave & 2 bottles of coke sitting in the cupboard. When I am finished this blog post I will bag it all up & hubby can take it to share with his coworkers tomorrow at work! I need it gone otherwise I will just eat it all & I know I will!my strength to say no has faded over the last few weeks & I am not sure as to why or what I have done to have it change. Maybe cause I let my guard down in Sydney although even then I made the healthy choices whilst eating out so I cant blame something that was 3ish weeks ago. This is a mindset that I have got myself in & since I have got myself out of it before, its time to do it again!

I missed adding my weight in stats for last week which were quite pleasing considering I went out drinking for my birthday on the Saturday night. I managed a 600g loss & that puts me back at 70.9kg. Still 300g higher than when I finished round 2 but at least its getting back down there. I hope to see the 60's tick over soon but eating & drinking the way I am that wont ever happen!!

Time for some tough love I think & JFDI. I need to get back out the door on off gym days, I need to look at my goals & see where I am at since afterall I am only 2 weeks away from my first lot of goals! I need to get my head back where it should be. If I am to be one in this little town to wear my newly acquired gym shirt with pride to show off what healthy eating & exercise can achieve, I need to get back to following the plan & back to remember what Mish tells us to do!!

Eat clean & train hard

Cath xoxo

2 comments:

  1. Could the mental block be about hitting the 60's?? I know that I teetered on the edge of my last decade for ages (like 6mths) before I started pre-season and then I slipped under without even noticing! The 5kg before were easy and then I just scraped under for one weigh in and then I lost my mojo like you have right now!

    Within two weeks you will be under 70kg if you stick the plan.. JFDI!

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  2. I hope you had a really great birthday. It only comes around once per year and we are allowed to celebrate in style. But only for one day! I am very much like you and if there is food in the house I find excuses to walk past and get it. And then I eat it all and justify it to myself somehow. It is hard with kids as I get them smallish snacks to go with their fruit in their lunch boxes, but invariably I end up eating them all *sigh*. I have found myself now buying them snacks they like, but I don't - just so I won't be tempted.

    Well done on getting back so close to the 60's. It won't take too long to break that barrier. The harder one is in your head, but I think you can do it. Just don't worry about what has happened already in R3, just start again tomorrow and keep on keeping on.

    Hope to hear how you have gone soon.

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